wandering thoughts and hearts

Here I am staring at this beautiful scene, from one of my hundreds of photographs.....wishing it was spring.....and wishing that I was wandering....

right there.....

through the woods as gentle breezes kissed with the scent of pine passed through my hair…wandering through the sounds of nature…the crackle of squirrels running through the brush…the view of buds coming out from hiding on each tree branch…the smell of a spring rain still settling on the ground...

Peaceful.

And I wonder....

would I want to be wandering there alone again? Or anywhere?

Have my days of hiking, walks through gardens, meanders through parks....been cursed to do so alone from now on?

No.

Will I be asking anyone special to join me on these trails??? These trails of life??

No.

I will wander and do my thing until I am asked to share my time. Even after that, I will do my own thing…but I will share a bit of that with the special requestor. And I know that it will not take forever to have that happen…I have too many suitors that are interested. But they aren’t…they aren’t…

Well, you all know what I am waiting for…

Only until a wolf decides to stop chasing it’s own tail in circles…and be the alpha male. I am a prize…and there are many players. But this girl is still waiting for the prime male to do what a man should: hunt and capture……All of me.

You have my heart…you have my thoughts…why not take it all?

Ok – Why worry about it? I can handle this guy…have for so long now and all of his games. I am actually starting to appreciate them and enjoy them. Must be his Big quality. And then I start to wonder from time to time…Maybe he isn’t the alpha he claims to be…maybe under it all is just a puppy waiting to for someone to really love him and nurture him. I think that is all any man truly wants, besides a little respect from the woman who desires his heart.

Big or not…craving power, adventure, and excitement - - or not…I think I am really believing that.

Another lesson learned…


Now if I can only learn to form those three words with my mouth again....No stuttering....no blank stares....no writers block or beating around the bush.

I need to learn to say "I Love You" to those who matter most...without out fear....


Ah, my lunch is over and time for real work....Have to proove myself here, as well....