i just felt a speed bump

called "been here before"

And down the road not even a mile,

i see a ditch

Running out of gas and almost on empty...

Should i just turn around and go home

Park it in the garage and take a long run instead

i just can't take the chance of landing my vehicle in a ditch again

i think I might total it....

Going down to meditate with the wolves in the early am...

Need to get away for the morning and clear my aching head

Before the rain hits

Been thinking too much...

And i can't do another work out today...
(3 already done - pilates/yoga am, running and swimming)

and can't eat anymore salsa...

i am out of 'rita mix -
anyways no one to share it with...

i have...

nevermind

going to bed before midnite tonight

...........................................................................................

Days and Days later...

i hit the ditch...

Speeding too fast

i guess...

i just drive too damn fast

A slow walk in the gardens today didn't even help

Made me realize how lonely i am

i thought it would

i should have had one of my friends come along

i guess it was meant to be though

i was blessed by the beautiful flora and glorious smells

i was enlightened on this photographer's adventure

i was then kindly complimented...

made me smile even though...

i just didn't really believe it.

Guess i need to join a support group:

"Hopeless saps that have been drained of their sappiness"...

i am drained...

Yep.

On empty.

I should find that cave and hybernate for the next decade...

Or until...

i forget why anyone would want to be....

Oh, but i so want to be...

No longer feeling...Sassy

i want to feel...

warm and fuzzy feelings

(i do, but i shouldn't)

damn

i am a contradiction unto myself