Oops, I Did It Again - DAMN!

Yet again, this girl needs a kick to the head. Why? You might ask...

Well, I am too trusting, too optimist, too nice...not evil enough or even slightly close to being. I am left asking myself:

When will I ever learn?

This isn't even midnight and I am rambling....and I am absolutely not silly right now. I am fuming. I am pissed off, for lack of a better term. Am I more mad at him or myself? I cannot tell.

Never again.

Oops!! Said that before and I think even within one of these pages.

So, in the words of the most ultimate blonde:

Oops, I did it again!

What did I do? It tried to work with my ex-husband. I tried to work with him in hopes that this would benefit our daughter. I trusted that he wanted more than hopes of getting back together with me. I trusted that he was really interested in pursuing the counseling and classes to better himself. But I was wrong. It was just another ploy. Another one of his psychological twisted mind games to try to...god knows why...get me back into his life on his terms. Yes...Yes...Yes!!! I know and I don't have to have anyone tell me again - His "Control Issues" and I was the one he use to depend on to pull him through the seasonal depression.

Again - but not in my rambling poetry form...

I am burnt out. Just exhausted. Tired of playing the nice girl when this is what I get hit back with.

If I detailed this blog with what I just got hit with from him...it would be too much for a blog.

I would cry...But crying won't pull me out of this...buck up. Smoke that cuban dad got me, drink a glass of wine, and get to work.

My forcast: A late night working...