Without the Heart...

"Without the heart there can be no understanding between the hand & the mind."

I am a firm believer in that quote.

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Is love real? How can we be sure it isn't all pheromones and hormones??? I am not speaking of family love - parental love. That is real, mixed with basic instincts to protect and survive. I am talking about warm fuzzy romantic love. Is that warm fuzzy feeling just a little pheromone magic or our sex drives kicking in?

On that same line of thought...that is the existence of true romantic love...Fate...Past Lives...Meant to be??? I have always been looking for my Dali...Fancy myself a Gala. I have been searching for him since 1989. I thought that this Virgo had found her complimentary...but...I don't think that it is all about the astrological signs you are born under, though. Some friends may beg to differ. I think that I know that for sure today. I think that if it is true, it is deeper than that...maybe.

And yet I waiver...

Could there be such a thing as fate or true love or anything along those lines? Is it mystical or magical...It really hasn't seemed like it for the last eight years for me. I am hoping that if this fate/past lives business is real that in this life I would do justice and be a kinder mate to my lover, better artist, not be so promiscuous, and treat my daughter like the princess she is - always. In this life I didn't contract and fall terribly ill with Tuberculosis, now I am doing what little I can to help eradicate it, with my limited knowledge and education. In this life I left my Paul for no one else - but for myself and my daughter. In this life I would treat my Dali with the respect he deserved....

But that is all wistful and silly thinking.

Unfortunately in this life I still don't sleep well...

enough for today...

"But you're just a boy
And you don't understand
(yea, you don't understand, oh!)
How it feels to love a girl
someday
You wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Because you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy"

.....and I am just a girl at heart, even if that heart is broken.